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[Unbelievable]

Jeez Kaiz mate, that must have been such a shock. Here’s hoping the treatment and pills make you feel better and you can make it over to one of these in the future. In the meantime, look after yourself and get well soon!

[Heron]

11 hours ago, Kaizero said:

Bit of a late bump, but I kinda went AWOL from the Internet a few days before this was happening and didn't inform anyone why that was. So this felt like the most relevant thread to post an explanation in. 

 

In short, I was informed that a tumor had been found in my brain (not cancerous), which given it's position apparently was the reason for why I've had a few years of absolute shit health as it's been fucking up the natural release of cortisol in my body, making my cortisol levels be dangerously high. If untreated, it would always be a terminal diagnosis. But in 8 out of 10 cases, it's treatable - with the 2 out of 10 cases that aren't treatable being cases where it was discovered "too late". Not "too late" with regards to theoretically being treatable, but "too late" for the doctor's to do everything they need to do to prepare for essentially amputating the part of the brain where the tumor is to avoid it fucking up the release of cortisol - meaning the "terminal" part of it being untreated just was too damned close for 2 out of 10 people after it was discovered.

 

As they looked through my medical journal, that became their main fear as incident after incident kept popping up in my journal, going back several years, that were most likely caused by the tumor - meaning the clock was ticking.

 

So, I went AWOL from the online world and the offline world as I ended up thrown into an existential crisis and started "sorting out my affairs" in case everything would end badly. However, earlier today they did this:

 

 

Which also means today is the first day in what feels like ages that I had any form of motivation to actually plan ahead in life again and not drown myself in work I felt I had to sort out in case I were to drop dead without warning. Means I have to take cortisol pills every day for the rest of my life to replace the cortisol the "thing" (I don't remember the name 😅) affected by the tumor originally had the responsibility of releasing. But I mean, certain death at a random point in time, or taking a pill once a day? Feels like a fair trade-off by removing that "thing"  

 

Either way, I know I might have let a few people down with my AWOL-ness out of the blue. But at least those I might have let down now know why it happened 🙏🏼

Just read this. Sorry you've had to endure this fella. Hopefully, you've got what you need now and are on the mend. Take care

[Kaizero]

14 hours ago, Dr.Spaceman said:

I had a feeling something was up. Glad you're on the mend

14 hours ago, Yorkie said:

Look after yourself, Kaizero.

14 hours ago, LFEE said:

Hopefully you make the next one @Kaizero

 

Take it easy and hopefully you are on the mend now.

12 hours ago, Rod said:

Kaizero man, what a shit period you have experienced.  Get well soon.  My thoughts and prayers are with you.

4 hours ago, Unbelievable said:

Jeez Kaiz mate, that must have been such a shock. Here’s hoping the treatment and pills make you feel better and you can make it over to one of these in the future. In the meantime, look after yourself and get well soon!

2 hours ago, Heron said:

Just read this. Sorry you've had to endure this fella. Hopefully, you've got what you need now and are on the mend. Take care

Cheers, all  

For those interested, I've expanded a bit on my initial post - but instead of continuing here I posted it in the more appropriate thread for actually talking about it in chat: https://newcastle-online.org/topic/27834-experiences-of-depression-and-anxiety/page/217/#comment-8212223