It feels like the end of the world tbh. I haven't cried in years but I came close earlier.....we're firmly stuck in hell for a long time. To see all these other clubs with likeable people, people with good intentions and people with dignity. Then I look at us and it's like all our nightmares have come true. Right now, it hasn't sunk in because I've managed to laugh and get distracted. But come tomorrow, after one sleep, the reality will hit me. We're in deep trouble.