Not quite sure what you're actually asking or getting at.
I would guess getting back into it is kind of like the Thomas Wolfe title - "you can't go home again." Home is really a when, not a where. It sounds like the discomfort is because you see something to like about the game again, and you want it to be the way it was but it never can be, not now. So you either have to love it for how you see it now or not?