Pretty much, whonestly i'm I can't be f***ed being angry at the club anymore, the club is a big part of my life that I refuse to always be angry towards it. Obviously if/when Rafa walks that will change.
Rafa being here is the first time I've been able to be genuinely happy as an NUFC supporter, as depressing that may sound to some. I loved the first 6 months of last season, obviously it's easy to love a club that's winning all the time but the run of games September-October last season had me waking up on a Saturday or Wednesday night or whenever we were playing like a frothing lunatic. The 5th season was great as well but even that had its ridiculous Pardew-isms. Ashley's fucking wrecking it, out of spite or whatever. Making me, a teenager, unable to enjoy matchdays, doing away trips down to London and getting turned over 5-1 off Crystal fucking Palace. I really can't be arsed to take any more years like that.