Feel really apathetic/disillusioned about it all if I'm being honest.
Really couldn't have cared less about our games these past few weeks because in the back of my mind, I just knew what we would serve up - the same deep line/defensive s****. Having said all that though, I am never one to miss a game voluntarily so I naturally follow/watch the game on matchday even though I know I'm going to dread the next 90 minutes. Endurance is the key and I do find myself being as passionate as ever when the game kicks off/during the game - that is, shouting when things go wrong and screaming with elation if we score (pity the latter is rare these days).
The thing is though, Newcastle United are my club and I can never allow myself to completely block them out of my head. I know there's more to life than football but NUFC has contributed to my life more ways than none (helped me to integrate at primary school, for example) and all I want is what's best for the club. It pains me to see us in such a situation and I have allowed it to affect my day/week but at the same time, a great deal of apathy has set in but whatever happens I will never stop supporting NUFC.